> Shrouded in darkness;

~~Thursday, 25 December 2008~~

7:45 am

hi...

25 December 2008, Thursday... a busy working day for darkangel sab...
hello everyone... Happy Christmas everybody... ^^
counting down 6 more days to New Year... ^^
counting down 29 days to Chinese New Year... ^^

i'm still not feeling well... having headache, giddy, cough and bad cold... u_u
since last sat until now... me still isn't well yet...

Christmas eve (24 dec) and Christmas (25 dec) sales was very good too... we collected a total of S$4800 plus (24 dec) and 3600 plus (25 dec)... super busy and siong day for us... at converse...

on 24 dec night after work (10pm)... i went to my supervisor's house accompany with my colleague... i also called my ex boyfriend to join the party... he arrive at 11pm... i went down to get him... he told me something that given me a shock... i told him i will slim down and become beautiful... he told me that he need a small size partner, if i become smaller than his size... he will buy a ring and bring me to ROM to register for engagement... lols... when i heard that i was super shocked... wtf... he want me to be his future wife worx.... OMG!!!

then we went up to my colleague's house to join in the party... it's a special party celebrate with the other country people... hehe... we eat, share, sing and even dance.... i love spend time with them... although i do understand what they are saying but i actually fine for me...

around 1 plus... i went home with my ex boyfriend... meaning i went to his house... to play games... maple story... ^^ i'm still a new beginner... so i need his help to play this game... lol... haha... still playing childish games...

i stay at his house till next morning 6am... then i went home by 7am... i went to my sleep till 2pm... then 5pm... my work at CONVERSE starts... super busy and tired... i still so sleepy man!!! what to do... i continue the work till 10pm... finally end work le... i went home with my crush as every night if i got work, he got work... we will go home together...

i reach home by 10.45pm... after that... you should know... take a bath and go to bed... haha... ^^ i got to go now... will update again next time... ^^ bye...

darkangel sab♥♥♥

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, 24 December 2008~~

3:30 am

hi...
23 December 2008, Tuesday... a busy working day for darkangel sab...

tomorrow will be Christmas eve already... so fast... ^^
counting down 2 more day to Christmas... ^^
counting down 1 more week to a New Year... ^^
counting down 32 days to Chinese New Year... ^^

i'm still not feeling well... having headache, giddy, cough and bad cold... u_u

i'm so busy nowadays... need to work everyday as Chinese New Year coming on it's way... so siong... people rushing buying all sorts of shoes, shirts, wallet, bags etc... ^^ sales very good since last week... everyday the total sales earning for my shop will be S$3000 plus... so good... i'm so happy that i can experience what Christmas and Chinese New Year working period... so busy and there's isn't a time that you can take a rest...

i just receive a sms from my ex (3rd boyfriend) that he just broke up with his current girlfriend... don't know what is wrong with the couple... all i know from him is that the girl is playing his feeling... he told me that the girl is making him dislike her day by day and now she is making him hate her alot... he don't know whether that girl did treat him as her boyfriend or not... all i know this girl never accompany him when she is off day (not working)... don't even bother to stay by his side... i feel very strange about this relationship within them... why this girl didn't spend time with her boyfriend but rather with her friends??? i feel so funny about this...

you should be asking me why am i bothering about this matter so much... as he hurt me once before... leaving you alone behind and find a new girlfriend... it's becoz... i do care about him alot although i'm a outsider... i'm his best pal, best friend and ex girlfriend... i know more about him than that girl... i have no feeling for him anymore... as i only have feeling for my crush (dark knight)... he is just my friend...

but just now... i so curious about asking him whether he still have feeling for me... or he wish to patch back with me...

Him: i don't know... my heart is very choosy now... i scare i will hurt you again... so it's better that we maintain as what we are now...
Me: why your heart need to be so choosy... why are scare to hurt me again... why is there a need to maintain what we are now... you never try why you so confirm you will sure hurt me... you forget that i'm still there waiting for you...
Him: okays... if you want to try... but i don't know do i still love you or not... if you want to try to patch back with me... i can try back with you... if one day if i ever hurt you again... please don't blame me can???

i didn't answer him... i don't know how to reply him... so i just ask him to think over... whether he is ready to patch back with me... and accept my everything... if he is ready, just send me a message... i am also scare i may hurt him again too... i just want him to stay happy with me... i hate seeing him feeling so sad...

what can i do now... work, study, family, money or love...? i don't know... can you decide for me???

i got to go now... ^^ need to go to bed and rest... will update you more next time... as now very tired already... need to work tomorrow... ^^

good night...

darkangel sab♥♥♥

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, 23 December 2008~~

2:29 am

hi there...
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year in advance... ^^

22 December 2008, Monday...
Rest day for darkangel sab...

i'm sick since Saturday... still not feeling well... fever went down now... but still having headache, giddy, cough and cold... so damn man... every time i will fell sick when it's around new year time... zzzzzzz...

i'm staying in the house all day... resting and doing nothing... so boring at home man... having three troublemakers in the house (Theo - my mum babysit, Nicholas - my cousin and Jeremy - my youngest bro)... so noisy and irritating... what the fuck... damn bloody hell...

i hate stay in the house... i rather go out do some activity with my loved one (not sex) or my friends... or stay in my room reading a lot of books... like twilight, harry potter etc... ^^

i also miss my crush (my dark knight) and my work (CONVERSE)...

i got to go now... ^^ need to go to bed and rest... will update you more next time... as now very tired already...

darkangel sab♥♥♥

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, 19 December 2008~~

12:01 pm

Hello... ^^

22 December 2008, Saturday
today i would like to share a event that i have attended last sat... ^^
very fun and interesting activities...

on 20 December... i attend for the Free Hugs Campaign... ^^

this event is organized by Youth NTUC... this event is you need to give people or strangers hugs to brighter their day... the best present you can give someone need not cost money... it's the sincerity that counts and hugs convey a lot more than they seem...

it starts in the morning at 11am and ended in the afternoon at 3pm... ^^ before we go out to the street to hug people, we gather at *scape skate park (Youth Park) for briefing and given free t-shirt (Hug me) with a wristband (Youth NTUC) and a badge (K Angel badge)... we started the whole time @ 11.30pm... haha.. you should know what next... giving hugs started... ^^ i did hug alot of people on the street of Orchard... even foreign like Korean, Japanese, US etc... ^^ i feel happy and wonderful after this event... ^^ there is free lunch provided after the event... you can choose either Japanese or Thai set meal... yummy!!! i did bring some sets back to my work place @ compass point... i did make friends, a lot of friends... diffierent age, size, race, gender... ^^ i will still join the event next year... as it is so meaningful and fun... if you wish join the fun... just find me @ msn... i will sure bring you along... ^^

after the event, i rush back to work... my work starts at 5pm and ended at 10pm... 6hrs of work... so busy... because Christmas, Chinese new year and school reopen coming in one shot... super siong...

i also get sick and having slight fever now... so damn everytime around the CNY period... i will sure get sick... i not feeling well right now while i'm typing this post... i now having menses and even get sick... super damn it... i hate this way of being weak and helpless... i want someone to hug me now and even lend me a shoulder to lean on... u_u

^^ i got to go now... need to go to bed and rest... as i can't hold on much longer... going to drop... will update you more next time...

darkangel sab♥♥♥

Will you ever notice me...

~~Wednesday, 17 December 2008~~

3:41 am

Hello!!! ^^

17 december 2008, tuesday...

Finding a perfect boyfriend... ^^
darkangel sab looking for new love life... ♥♥♥

i'm seeking for a ideal boyfriend that i wanted...
although i'm afraid of guys... (since young)
i'm so scare, but i don't know why...
although i'm scare or afraid of guys...
but i'm not interested in having a girlfriend as i'm not a lesbian...
i love guys... (100% sure about it!!!)

i'm now currently single since 8 July 2008...
after i broke up with my 3rd boyfriend...
i hate being left alone without love...
i always seen couples holding hand and are happy with each other...
why not me...

the type of boyfriend i wanted... ^^ (NOW!!!!!!!!!)
- age between 21 to 30 years old
- height not shorter than 165cm
- no need to be handsome... but his heart got to be kind and beautiful
- he must be the one who can take care of me... (as i still very childish)
- he must spare time for me, not always spend time with games and friends
- he must be a animal lover (the most important... ♥♥♥)
- allow smokers, with tattoos etc. (as all my bf are smokers and with tattoos)
- funny, fun-loving, cute and playful plus a bit naughty...
- no need to be a virgin... (if you are virgin, it's OK)
- don't care what my size are... either slim or plump
- remember the most important day or dates (my birthday, our anniversary etc.)
- to be faithful to me

i don't need a bf which is... (the type that i HATE the most...)
- selfish
- think he is super clever... (keep telling me why am i so stupid)
- making decision without telling me...
- always thinking he is always right and I'm always wrong
- too gentleman
- leaving me alone
- making me cry... (my ex keep making me cry)
- not hygiene
- keep giving comments…

i hope i can find a better boyfriend...
i hate short love life...
i wish this time if i ever find new love life...
i hope he could be the one who never leave me...
as i want a long never ending relationship...

darkangelsab♥♥♥

Will you ever notice me...

2:02 am

hello people... ^^
17 December 2008, Tuesday

today is a wonderful day for me...
i actually sleep super long hours - 16 hours... omg!!!!
can you believe that???? O.o

actually i wake up in the morning... i only sleep for 10 hours - 11am... then i went out with my mummy (don't worry, i have clean myself before i go out, eg. bath, brush teeth etc.)after i went back home (it's 1 hours later), i keep on sleeping until 6 pm in the evening (6 hours total)...

i think i know what are you thinking in your mind now...

ARE YOU A PIG???? o.O

hahahahahahahaha.............
(i think i'm going to become a piglet already!!!) ^^

darkangelsab... ♥♥♥

Will you ever notice me...

~~Tuesday, 9 December 2008~~

3:56 pm

hello again... ^^
9 December 2008... Tuesday...

i went to my friend's house today... actually my friend is my ex la... although we can't be lovers but i think we can still be friends... all i know our fate have already gone... there is still friendship in between us... i already forgive him... in whatever he have done to me... now he have found new love... I'm very happy for him... as he still have a chance to love... but I'm now still single... u_u since we broke up that day... i decided to be single as i feel that i don't need a man... but now i feel lonely and wanted to find a new love to release my hurts and sadness from my last relationship...

i do have new crush but i didn't ask for his love... as i know everything have to slowly as time isn't ripe yet... i like him alot as he have alot of things that is similar with me... i feel that he could be my "ming zhong zhu ding" or destiny guy... ^^ but can i be his one and only??? i don't know... haiz... he know i like him (i think someone did tell him that i like him), but i decided to keep mute... i don't want to let him know... i rather keep it within me than being sad... i scare he will reject me when i confess my feelings to him...

dark angel (me) love dark knight (him - my crush)... ^^
but do dark knight love dark angel???
could dark knight hiding his love???

i do have another guy who is asking me as his girlfriend or lover... i kinda want to be with him... but in the end i reject him, because he is my ex classmates from ite... i don't like him anymore... as he ever hurt me once and keep telling me lies... now i rather be his friend than his girlfriend... we are classmate since i enter to ite... my class is IOK batch 2004... i'm a playful girl that time, who like to fool around, very sunshine, like to mix around... he is a shy guy at that time... but one day... i heard a rumour about me and him... he tells people in the class that he like me... zzzzzz... what is the need to tell everyone... if he like me... he can confess to me immediately right??? this stupid rumour keep going to the other classes and the teacher that teaches us... what the fuck is this...

i don't like him... but he did alot of things that let people thinks that we are together... like sitting beside me when eating in the canteen, doing project in the same group, sitting very near to me when in class, holding my hands when group project, eat the same food when recess time etc... i hate it... for this long 6 years, he is there waiting for me... i still can't accept him... i can't love him...

love is what???
i still don't know...

do you know???
can you tell me...???

i have to go now... ^^
i will update you again...
bye from now...

darkangelsab♥♥♥

Will you ever notice me...

~~Friday, 5 December 2008~~

8:40 am

hey there!!!
7 December 2008, Sunday… ^^

I'm not working for the past 6 days already...
so boring...
i prefer to work than stay at home...
i hate staying at home doing nothing...

i want to go out too...
but currently broke already...
no money to spend... u_u

i want bf too...
now currently single since 8 July...
i hate couples holding hands in front of me...
i want love life now...
i want to know who will be the one...

i decided to slim down nowadays...
as i want to be more beautiful...
i hate to be call as a pig or elephant etc... u_u

i will take half of my December pay to do the service...
i wanted to make every guys who have hurt me to regret...
i want to make them pay...

i have to go now... ^^
i will update you again...
bye from now...
take care... ^^

darkangelsab♥♥♥

Will you ever notice me...

12:30 am

Hello... ^^
welcome to my blog...
let me introduce myself...

my name is Sabrina Low... (Low Siew Eng - my full name)

i'm 21 years old this year... (27 November - my birthday)
i am born in the year of rabbit... (what's up, doc??? - from bugs bunny... LOL)
i am a free-thinker... ^^

i'm a 100% girl... i just behave like a guy...

i'm now working as a part time @ CONVERSE (Atlantic Sports Pte Ltd)...
currently single since 8 July, now looking for new love life...
i'm the eldest child in the family... (3 children in my house including me)

i'm a Teochew (daddy's side) mix Hakka (mummy's side)...

things that i love... reading, animals (dogs, cats, hamsters, rabbits(bunny) etc.), music (R&B type), making new friends, writing stories, making d.i.y. things, cooking, watching movies (funny, action, love, anime etc.), dancing, singing, teddy bear (pooh bear, tatty teddy etc... any kinda bear i will like) , Chris Brown, flowers (my fave - Roses & Sunflower), Levi Jeans...^^

things that i hate... selfish people, liars, backstabber, not hygiene people (like to fart, split around etc.), stubborn people, hurting or kill animals (damn bloody killer), dishonest people, lesbians, yucky things...

my fave food... cheese, chocolate, milk, hot dogs, pasta, pizza, mushrooms, green tea (pokka)

i scare of... rats, lizards (in the house, park and zoo)...

books that i love... Harry Potter (full series), Twilight (full series)...

darkangel sab♥♥♥

Will you ever notice me...